Well the boy's flew into Arkansas on Wednesday with their Aunt Ruth and they spent the day with their Dad today and from the sounds of things they had fun, Asa kept talking about his McQueen cup that his Dad got him and they took the boys to Silver Dollar City I am uploading a few pic's of the boy's on the plane and the one Ruth sent of Asa and his cup cause he wanted me to see it, I will write more later

                                              Grace Ellen

Well it is finally spring I have been looking forward to it and it is getting pretty, Asa went with his Aunt Ruth for the weekend to Washington I guess he has had alot of fun swimming he is doing well even though his diagnosis was hard to hear it has been a relief as well because now I know he is not just being a brat he is not understanding so things are going alot better, The boy's are going back to Arkansas with Ruth next month well I have to run take care all.

                                                    Grace Ellen

Well we finally saw the pediatric specialist today and he said that it look's like Asa has Autism words I did not want to hear but wasn't completly suprised either he said that it was higher end he felt like because beyond being verbal everything alse points to Autism and I said so I am not crazy for thinking he is a challange and he said no I can see where he is very challanging because he appears so normal but he actually doesnt understand alot of what you say and cannot do something as basic as picking up toys that he gets out anyway figured I would update write more soon since I have my own computer now I should be doing more typing on here

                                                            Grace and the Boy's

Well there has been alot happen went to the Doctor last week and they said Asa diffinantly has developmental delay's he will now being seeing a pediatric specialist for developmental delays he has been through alot but we will get through it.The other day he said Mom could you do me a favor, and I said sure and he goes could you pick up my toys and put them in the toy box, that was funny

Lewy is doing good he talks 90 to nothing I will write when I have more to say

                                                           Grace Ellen

Oh my word we have had fun we made homemade ornaments and Asa got to paint them Lew is still a bit small and Asa had so much fun he painted a snowflake black and a christmas tree red and a snowman green but he had fun he got blue paint all over his face and then he got to hang them on the tree and the tree is actually not lopsided..............well not that he caused anyway but we wont discuss that,

  I feel like life is finnaly becoming life after a divorce you wish that you could skip the grieving and just get on with life but unfortuantly everything has a time and a season and you can't skip seasons just because you don't want to go through them but I think just maybe a see glimpses of spring and life starting again I wish that I could tell anyone and everyone facing what I have been through that at first breathing takes effort thinking is out of the question and then you find your feet and pray that you can still stand on them and you put one foot in front of the other and walk on and before you know it things start taking less effort I wish I could say and then you forget about it I haven't made it there yet but I have made it to the point I can say no when I don't feel that I should cross a line and not feel that I have done something wrong if that person walks away, If you won't be true to yourself you are of no use to anyone in your life because your not you I wish I could have learned that lesson a little sooner but oh well sorry didn't mean to ramble

                                                      Catch Yall Later

                                                              Grace Ellen